I think that working in a cancer program (albeit pediatric and I work in finance) has helped. The knowledge I've gained working in this environment has provided a sort of comfort. I know what things mean, I know what to expect. But I also think that I am relieved that it is me.
1 in 8 woman will be diagnosed with breast cancer in their lifetime. That seems like a lot...
There are 7 women in my book club - so it's me. There are 9 women in my immediate family - so it's me. I am grateful that its not them. Why? Because I know how to deal with me. I know what I need to do, I have some semblance of control over me, I don't worry about me - but I do worry about everyone else.
Or maybe I'm just foolin' myself!
Or maybe I'm just foolin' myself!
Thanks daddy!
ReplyDeleteThis is so you, no kidding, right?!
ReplyDeleteYou aren't fooling yourself & when you're not okay that will be okay, & I'll be there.
Heather, you amaze me--being who you are and owning each day's feelings. Love you!
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