How are you?

Now that I've put that technical stuff out there lets move on to the touchy feely thing.
The  day following my diagnosis we headed off to Northern Virginia to visit some wonderful friends. It was a wonderful week and just what I needed. It was fun to finally introduce my little quacks to the rest of the quack family (or most of it anyway).

We stayed with some of the greatest friends I could ever have asked for!  They allowed me time to grieve, time to laugh, an ear to listen to all my ramblings and research, they made my children feel safe, and gave me their friendship and love. For that I am truly and forever grateful. A gargantuan 💗THANK YOU💗 to the Rossows. And another huge thank you to the rest of the Quacks for all of their love and support and friendship.

On Saturday, a group of my friends came over to visit and play. I told them all my about my diagnosis, the next steps, some of the later possibilities. At some point my friend Megan asked "OK but how are YOU?"

Now that's a good question....one that I'm not really sure how to answer.  So here is my attempt:
I'm worried -worried about my Knight who will do too much and push himself too hard and won't ask for help. I'm worried about my crazy kids (big & little) and how this will impact them. I've decided not to worry about "what happens if..." - we will deal with our path as it comes.

If I'm truly honest with myself, I am afraid of what is to come. I have been trying very hard not to go down that path however since it feels a bit like quicksand.

I am optimistic. I know the road will be bumpy but I know that everything will be all right.

I am determined - to stay positive and beat the hell out of this cancer. "Just keep swimming" -Dori.

I am truly moved by the show of support I have received. Not just from close friends and family but people I haven't talked to in years or haven't ever met.

Most of all grateful for all those supporting me especially my family and those that are my chosen family.